Some days are more difficult than others. For anyone. I get it. I have this challenge in my life as well. We may appear all happy on the exterior when in reality something else is happening to us inside. What we see is not always what we get. A picture may be worth a thousands words but what are those words that we are actually telling ourselves?
All those happy photos of people on Facebook and Instagram. The poses and strive for perfection even after the photo is taken. The filters and cropping to make the picture appear to be something it probably isn't. We see what we want to see. It's the lack of reality and seeing the illusion that is stepping in the way of your true happiness. It stirs something inside of us where you are actually reflecting some of our greatest feelings. Fears, judgment, jealousy, resentment, anger.....
Whether it's a picture or reflection or your inner self, what exactly are you saying to you? When you are unkind and maybe coming from a place of judgement. Why do we do the things we do? That is such a big question these days especially in the business that I am in. The quest for the answers of many unknown things has lead me down the path of discovering something far greater than what I was seeking. Or should I say than what I thought I was seeking.
The opportunity to get to know myself better. On an entirely new level of awareness and respect. We sometimes fail to allow people to know that not all is alright. And that is not alright and this is OK. We wear a mask to mask the feelings of what is truly going on inside. We battle with our thoughts more often then not and try to find a way back to a place of love. We have over 60,000 thoughts a day. I wrote that in number format so it would really resonate with you. Now get this -- 90% of those thoughts are repetitive!
My guess would be that those ninety percent are the bullshit thoughts we tell ourselves over and over again. The negative self talk, the one mistake out of a thousand we may have made. I think you get that picture. Guilty, guilty and guilty! Just last week there was a mean spirited post about me and my work. The post smelled of such bad judgement mixed in with a sprinkle of resentment. at first glance it did not bother me. I shrugged it off. The words continued to ring in my head over and over again.
So much so I couldn't see the forest for the trees. I couldn't see the beauty of all that I have created so far in my life. It wiped out all of my accomplishments and triumphs. I gave it so much power that I lost sight for a short time. It happens. I allowed the feelings to flow through me. I rode the ride. To diminish the energy vortex it had created so that I could transform it into something more beautiful and more powerful. I surrendered control.
My daughter reminded me of a Netflex video. It was the launch of Brene' Browns "The Call to Courage" in which I had sent to her weeks prior after she had gone through a similar situation. 'Brené Brown studies some of our most complex emotions and social interactions, like shame and vulnerability, developing a theory of shame resilience in women based on hundreds of interviews.'
"She found inspiration in an unexpected place. “You can’t really be brave without vulnerability,” Brown says in The Call to Courage, referencing a 1910 speech by Teddy Roosevelt that inspired her 2012 book, Daring Greatly: How the Courage to Be Vulnerable Transforms the Way We Live, Love, Parent, and Lead. Brown relayed Roosevelt’s words:
“It’s not the critic who counts, it’s not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done it different. The credit belongs to the person who’s actually in the arena, whose face is marred with dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs, who comes up short again and again and again and who in the end, while he may know the triumph of high achievement, at least when he fails he does so daring greatly.” " Newsweek
Then these words appeared to me. That same day. This one quote from Gabby Bernstein along with the reminder from my daughter to review the Brene' Brown video helped me come back to reconnect with my joy.
Your presence in this world is your strength.
Just being here. Being as kind as you can be. To support others, not tear them down. Even if they do make mistakes. You're not perfect nor should that even be a goal of yours. There was a lesson in it for me as always. I am grateful for the post because it gave me power to move forward one hundred percent. One hundred percent stronger. One hundred percent more clear and one hundred percent more powerful and willing to serve the world.
To serve others so people may learn that it's not OK to have such a strong voice that you cut to the core of a person. It's not OK to be vulgar and mean spirited. And even tho they wished me bad karma, I wish them the karma of the hopes that they find a greater love within themselves and realize that they too are light, they too are love and can make a difference in this world. Make peace your daily destination and Love your new lifestyle.